Title: Everything I Never Told You
Author: Celeste Ng
Everything I never told you begins with an incident that the worst nightmares of a parent are made of.
Lydia, daughter of James and Marilyn is missing.
'Lydia is dead. But they don't know it yet.'
The author has the reader experience the life of the characters through her words. The expressions, the metaphors, the little details...
There are many aspects of this book that linger on in my memory.
Lydia's death and the reason behind it, James' and Marilyn's past and marriage, the struggle of Chinese-Americans to fit in, Nath's and Hannah's (Lydia's siblings) emotions, and the many secrets.
The many secrets that we keep, especially from the ones we are very close to... some for our own benefit, but most to make sure we don't hurt those we care for.
Keeping these secrets is more often than not an unconscious, instinctive decision that we are ourselves unaware of. And this leads to a way of life.
Everything I never told you is the story of yet another dysfunctional family. And I say 'yet another' because I do wonder which family is not dysfunctional.
Since I have become familiar with this term, I wonder if there is any family that this word does not apply to.
If a family is seemingly non-dysfunctional, it is because they are lucky that their dysfunctionality has not been blown out of proportion by circumstances.
Or they are lucky that they have been able to hide from the eyes of the world.
A story that goes back and forth, Everything I never told you gives the reader insights into the family, their struggles with each other and with self. It hurts. Whom do you blame? Everyone has their own baggage that they are struggling with.
There are so many mistakes, so much pain in this book and yet, the author has painted each of the characters in such a way that I can't find it within me to judge any of them.
Everything I never told you is a touching story with a lot of depth. Each of the characters stands out and leaves an impact. For some more than others, yes, but as you get to know each of them better, you understand them. The end had me being sympathetic to every one of them.
The emotions of this book are subtle, high strung, and so very effective.
Everything I never told you made my eyes well up.
Reading it hurt. Well, considering its' subject it's meant to.
At the same time, it was a pleasure to read too, thanks to the author's ability to depict each situation and emotion admirably.
This is a story of emotions. Of feelings that lead to and follow a tragedy. And the author makes you feel the emotion of each of the characters. The feelings shine.
For me, the reason this book deserves five stars is the way it describes the loss of a loved one.
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